I’ve been watching a lot of Near Death Experience videos lately. You know, the ones where people tell the story of what happened to them when their heart stopped beating and they found themselves in the darkness or in the light. They’re met by angels, spirit guides or long passed relatives. Sometimes there’s a man there who they recognize as a prophet and some meet the Son of God himself. Sometimes they’re greeted by three wise men. One Jewish lady was met by three Rabbis. Whoever is there, greets them with warmth and understanding. Most of the time the Near Death Experiencer describes being surrounded by perfect love and most of them recognize that perfect love as God Almighty.

If they stay long enough they start to see scenes play out in front of them, scenes from their own past and that’s where it gets interesting. They not only see the things that they did but they understand why they did those things. They also know the thoughts and the feelings of the others that were affected by their actions. They can feel the sorrow or the joy that they caused and they know the right and wrong of what they did. They judge their deeds by the rule of perfect love.

My mind moves in circles now and I know for sure that I’ve hurt more people than I should have. I can’t know to what degree because I’m still on this side and mind reading is difficult here. It doesn’t do me any good to rehash and worry about those things. All I can do now is to act wiser and to love dearer than I did before. Who knows, I may have done a few things right in my life but what I do from now on is crucial. At least that’s how I feel.

Most days I find my mind wandering around in my own past. I wander around the block and relive the good and the bad. Lately I’m trying to focus mostly on the good. I think that’s more rewarding than crying over spilt milk. In my pleasant memory travels, I recall the most wonderful souls I’ve ever known. They keep appearing over and over again. I review the same memories, some of them hundreds or maybe thousands of times. I’ve wondered why I would do such a thing. I think it has to do with love, sometimes perfect love. Wonderful souls are full of that love and it flows freely from them and washes away despair, fear and loneliness. It gives hope even after they are gone.

There’s one soul who stands out in my mind above the others. I hope he saw me during his life’s review. If he did then he knew how his actions affected me and hopefully he read my mind and fully understood how I felt. I tried to be a good friend while he was alive. I’m sure I should have said more than I did. Maybe I could have been a better friend. But there is one thing I did do. During his life’s review my spirit called out across dimensions to whoever was listening and said, “You did right by me. The love of God Almighty is with you and it always was. I’ll see you later.”